Started to feel overwhelmed once again - more assignments/projects, student org, meetings, live the love, family, yz, starry, new dg, graduation, missions(?), career. Darn it. I would prefer a more routine life. At least i know what's gonna happen next. Right now, everything seems so uncertain. So much to follow up and make sure things are moving ahead. So many meetings to attend. Am i gonna go for missions? where? do what? should i apply for a job? where? special needs? normal childcare?
I haven't regulated myself to school yet. I haven't got my momentum of managing everything yet. People go for dance classes, movies, clubs, dinners to have time for themselves. I seem to be losing myself. Can't find time for myself - to be alone, to think, to pray, to focus on me. And i haven't had my daily dose of love today (don't think i will).
I'm finding more reasons to give up nowadays. But truly i'm thankful cause each time this happens, God gives me more reasons to not give up. He spoke to me on Sunday. He sent friends who ask "Are you okay?" and tell me "Smile more". He gives me sudden motivation to move ahead. He gave me a family who supports me.
There's just one thing i need to do - go to God. Been really lazy, i cannot deny or hide. So here i am, gonna say this LOUD. I WILL MAKE MY WAY BACK. whoever reads this, please keep me accountable. each time you see me, ask me about my qt with God okay? and nag me, scold me and do whatever to make sure i make my way back.
p.s. i think i'm gonna start jogging to have my alone time.
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