Lessons Learnt

I haven't been doing very well for quite awhile. I always thought i could manage it all. Well, i did. But i think i managed it all "wrong". "Wrong" because i was relying on myself too much. That's why i'm so tired now. Tired of having to manage all the responsibilities on hand - school, SO, YZ. I guess it's more of not feeling adequate to manage all the responsibilities. I don't think i'm doing them well at all. Everything put together seemed just so hard to go through - so overwhelming.

However, i wanna give thanks to God for picking me up. For teaching me what it truly meant to lay it all at His feet, to trust and to obey. I may not be totally okay. I'm still struggling very hard. I'm still struggling to have to manage the responsibilities. But there's one thing different - I'm managing them cause i'm learning to love God and to let Him lead me.

It was through Bible Study Fellowship(BSF) that God spoke to me - God's word, the preparation of the material, the discussion, the lecture and the fellowship. Honestly, i was dreading to go for BSF cause i wasn't doing well. I thought maybe i'll be able to spend time with God if i skipped BSF this week. I was glad i opened up to my mum. She encouraged me to go for BSF and so did Karryn. And i did. I was so glad that i did.

God spoke to me through His Word in Deuteronomy 30.
I was thinking if i should put the whole chapter down. But it'll be too long. So if you wanna know what the chapter says - look it up!
When we have sinned against God and turned away from Him, He will condemn us. However, God has given us a way out. He promised that when we turn back to Him and love and obey Him again, He still loves us and will open His arms to welcome us. It's like the parable of the prodigal son(Luke 15:11-32). The father welcomed his son even when his son left him and squandered all his father's money. How great is God's love for us through His son Jesus Christ!
All we need to do is to believe in Him, trust Him, love Him and obey Him.

I've learnt to trust God - to let Him guide me in decisions, in my words and actions. When i love and obey Him, everything else will fall into place. Only because God knows what's best for me. My life is no longer about me, but about Him.