School was okay today. Laughter here and there. Quite the same. Though class was interesting, i could'nt help but feel so tired. Oh well, need to have sufficient rest i guess.
I went to visit Amy with my parents today cause school ended early. Seeing how strong she is and how firmly rooted Amy and Joel are in God really encouraged me a lot. There must be a lot of stress and emotions they have to face everyday as amy fights with cancer. With the two young adorable and lovely kids, isaac and kate, it's definitely an even harder battle too fight.
Amy wasn't afraid to admit her mixed emotions and uncertainty as she received her treatments and the doctor's advice on the next set of drugs that she should take. But she was able to quickly find peace from the Big Guy up there cause she knows that only He can help and guide her through this battle. It got me thinking of how i would react if anything happened to me. Would i be able to find rest and peace in God? Or would i just start straying away because of all the emotions that i would be feeling?
On our way home, my mum and i went to get dinner. As we were walking back to the car, i asked my mum about the stress that cancer patients and their families have to face. Then i started to wonder if my family and i could face that stress. My mum then shared a story of her Bible College friend. He has been running the full marathon for the last 20 yrs. Now that he's older, he isn't able to run as fast as he could but he is still thankful to God that he can continue to move around and run without any difficulty. He shared with my mum and some other ppl too, that he knows of someone who has this illness that causes his muscles to shrink, thus causing him to not be able to move around much. Well, this other guy wanted to go back to the Bible College he studied in. Because the college was on top of a hill (the hills in HK are much higher than S'pore's Bukit Timah Hill), he had a lot of difficulty trying to go up, whether it was via a steep slope or stairs. And he didn't want to trouble anyone so he ended up not being able to go up. This guy with the illness didn't see the illness as a curse or something bad, but he still is thankful that God has given him life every single day.
I began to realise how i've been taking everyday for granted.
Everyday is a gift from God.
Every breath i take is a gift from God.
Every cent i have is a gift from God.
Every person in my life is a gift from God.
Every grain of rice is a gift from God.
Am i able to study and feel God's pleasure? Just like Eric Liddel, can i feel God's pleasure in everything i do? I will work towards that everyday cause pure joy can only be found when i open myself and my life to God!
Dear God, please take my life and use it as you please.
Take My Life (by Third Day)
How many times have I turned away
The nubmer is the same as the sand on the shore
But every time You've taken me back
And now I pray You do it once more
Chorus:
Please take from me my life
When I don't have the strength
To give it away to You
Please take from me my life
When I don't have the strength
To give it away to You Jesus
How many times have I turned away
The number is the same as the stars in the sky
But every time You've taken me back
And now I pray You do it tomight
Chorus:
Please take from me my life
When I don't have the strength
To give it away to You
Please take from me my life
When I don't have the strength
To give it away to You Jesus
Oh, I miss my sister even more as i was reading her blog. Really wanna talk to her right now. Please pray for her ya? I'm sure she's missing everyone back here too. I love you, Ling.
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