Poly education has ended for more than 2 weeks now. I've been slacking like never before. Sleep till the bright sun almost hits the middle of the sky. Doing what I love - watching tv, catching HK drama dvds, doing artwork. Though it's the kind of life that is so relaxing, I can't stand this kind of life in the long run. I need to find some work. Childcare? Typical office work? Something different like working at a flower shop or at starbucks? Something that I know I will ever do once I come out into the Early Childhood Field. Well, I shall see where God leads.

I was talking to my mum while shopping today. We really talked a lot. About my future, about my plans, about my dad and her experiences and about other marries couples' experiences. There's really so much more I don't know about life. Having children really isn't easy. Not only do you have to worry about providing a good shelter and more-than-sufficient clothes, you have to worry about their education, their health. Who can ever insure that everything is going to be smooth for them? That's why there's such a thing called insurance. And it is really expensive to have insurance for children. I mean my parents have insurances for all four of us kids. Can you imagine how much is spent just on insurance. Having a family is harder than studying and working. At least all these have definite answers, but having a family does not have answers that can apply to every family.
For those who are still kids, do appreciate all that your parents have done for you. Every single hour they spend working at the office and at home is all for your comfort and your good at mind. Everything that they do is so that they can provide the best for you. Appreciate them while you can. Don't regret when they're gone. A simple 'I LOVE YOU' and 'THANK YOU' is all they want. Do your best with your responsibility as a student and as their child.
For those who are old enough to think about marriage and children, starting a family is an amazing journey. Not that I've been through it, but listening to my mum has brought me to think a lot about it. It's not an easy journey. That's why God gave us another half so that the journey is walked through by TWO people and not one. Appreciate your other half if there is. If there isn't, patiently wait. God knows who the other half is and He will bring that other half to you if it's in His perfect will. Trust in Him.

For those who do not know, I'll be flying to Hong Kong with my family for a week in March. The main purpose is to visit my Granddad who is really ill. It might be the last chance we'll ever get to see him. We have to grab that chance while we can.
Gong Gong, I know that this period has been the worst for you, having to go through all the pain and being unable to eat anything. But hang in there! God was, is and will always be there with you through every single hour, minute and second of the day. I LOVE YOU!

Indeed I have a lot of thoughts today. I thought about all the material things I have - my clothes, my laptop, my phone, my bed, my table, my money, my mp3. What if all these are gone? What will I do? My dad said this today, 'All these worldly possession may be gone, but so what? All these can be earned back again.'. It is true. I don't lose anything if all these are gone. I am still Yi En. Without all my things, it's not going to change who I am and my identity as a daughter, as a sister, as a friend and as God's child. My treasure is in heaven. Can you live without your material possesion?

Matthew 6:19
"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. "